For now, I can't blog cos my internet connection at home is kinda screw up. So I don't think I'll be blogging for a few days.
Anyway, these few days its all about PW. The PW frenzy. Dang. But its okay. Its all going to be over soon.
Okay. I have nothing much to say for now. Using Farhan lappy now and currently at Minghuat's house. Waiting for band to start...
Farhan's laptop has this cool photo thing, I'm not sure what its called but there its fun to play with. Okay. Now lets enjoy the lame pictures that I've taken.
All of a sudden, I think of my worrying promotion status. Okay, this is kinda slow but I can't help it anymore. I need to rant it out from my chest before it starts to eat my sanity.
So you see. I am actually fine with retaining. Its not always bad thing right. You have an extra year to brush up everything and perhaps getting As and Bs in tests and examinations may be easier after all.
But my primary concern is that I will be left alone in J1 when my friends are already promoted. I hate the feeling of being left alone in the shelf. Its like we have no more in common. All the things that we want to do kind of disappear.
Seriously, and starting life in a new environment and getting to know new mates is tiring you know. Especially when I am not good in opening myself up to strangers.
I am basically saying the possible outcomes that may await one. Well, of course I do want to get promoted as much as I pray hard for.
Slowly, I got to know that many of my friends made it to J2. I am very happy for them too.
I am so insecure. Normal feeling I guess?
I shall talk to my teacher whether there is a chance of me getting promoted. Just to clear the insecurities that had been lingering in my mind for the past few days. And its time to get rid of it once and for all.
I will work hundred times harder next year if I really get promoted! I must and I will!
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Went back to Chung Cheng and its been months since I step foot there. I miss the band and my juniors so much.
I got to see my Vintage once again. So happy.
The super round and solid tone. I miss that. And the luxury of having an extra Eb key. I wish I had one in Nanyang.
A few days back, I attended the NAFA concert. Met up with the Xinmin people. I know its kinda weird to be mixing a lot with XMS students. I too wonder how I can end up being friends with them. Must be Kenny.
Anyway, it was pretty entertaining I must say. However, I thought the band was slightly off form on that day. Heck, the Movement for Rosa made my hair stood.
One whole row occupied by NYJCians.
Eunice! One of my favourite seniors. Haha. Here comes favouritism...
Life's been pretty mundane. Every day is filled with PW and a couple of lectures. Intensive Mother Tongue lessons don't appear to be that intensive frankly. Am getting sick of these robotic sequences of life. Like each day when I wake up, nothing is new. Its basically the same old stuffs.
I need a fresh start in my life. Sort of.
And I feel kind of sad every time after my lessons end. Its a little hilarious if I were to think about it. But I am not the type of person who goes back straight home after school. I usually go out with friends to anywhere. Plus, I do not mind traveling. However,the thing is. When I crack my skull to think of who whether to ask out, my mind goes blank. Like God's trying to make me go home straight right after school.
Okay wait. I do go out for awhile. Just that, I only hang around the areas near my house. Fucking boring.
Yeah. If you do not realize by now, you are actually reading someone's blog who hates going back home. And loves going out and have fun. Party all night long.
Lol. I am serious.
I want to go places as far as Bugis. Orchard. Jurong. Tampines. Esplanade.
I want to venture out out out. =.=
Okay. I swear from now on. I will ask anyone out and go anywhere I wish to. I must do it. Especially before band resumes. Cos my Fridays and Wednesday will be consumed by band practices once again.
So starting Monday,
Where should I go?
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Oh fuck. I don't know.
And how about Tuesday?
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Freak. I have no idea.
Perhaps I should go to Plaza Singapura on Tuesday. Just to eat Waffle Ice cream.
Lets just say I met the promotion criteria the other way round.
The promotional criteria is a pass in one H1 subject and two H2 passes.
Well, what can I do. I shall pray really really hard that my CA and Mid Years will save me.
For now, I shall wait for the overall result to be released. No point mulling over something that is beyond my ability to change it. I can't do magic neither am I brave enough to break into the General Office at night and somehow find a way to edit my marks. Probably I might just get myself expelled from the school. =.=
Baby, it was fun to the maximum. Swimming along the beach, cycling around the whole of Sentosa and having a picnic with friends were the best. Those mentioned activities had been in my have-to-do list ever since Promos ended. And finally, I did those things. =D
Shiok.
The result of being under the sun for quite some time can be a little painful when I actually look like a lobster. I look damn red. But not bad eh. Its my favourite colour too. So, I do not really mind being red. My face hurts at times too when I try to do some extreme facial expressions. So, now I think I look quite expressionless. =.=
So met up with Kenny first at 10 am or so. Which we then headed to Khatib MRT station to meet with Weilin. Anyway, I was a damn kind soul that day man. Cos I helped an old lady to carry her bukly stuffs until Bishan MRT and even to alight just to cater to her convenience.
But she kinda annoyed me when she asked this question.
" Are you a Phillipino?"
God damn it I am not.
I had been asked the same question for four times already and still active.
I wonder which part of me actually looks like its made in Phillipino. Hmmm...
Whatever it is, lets get back to topic.
In Vivo. While finding our way to the Sentosa Monorail station.
Sharlyn and Weixiang. They got married over the hills and far away!
We've reached. Sentosa here we come!
Them again.
I kinda like this picture. We have different facial expressions. First, I don't know what the hell is that expression. Second, Heh heh. Distracted. Third, act shy. Last, er.. Vincent is in his own world.
Departure. We're going overseas.
Deciding on which beach to go to.
From the left, Kenny, Me, Sharlyn, Weixiang and Vincent. Weilin is not in the picture.
We cycled the whole of Sentosa. It was exhausting but super fun. That was taken when we were lost and resting.
Cheers!
After barbequing ourselves in Sentosa, we got ourselves cooled in Vivo.
I love going to Toys R Us. Cos I can see Cheryl there. ^^
Hello Cheryl!
And now, Kenny is bringing Cheryl around on a pram.
Cheryl, acting cool. Haha.
Elmo. Cookie monster. Spongebob Squarepants. And unknown teddy.
Afterwards, all of us slacked at Vivo. The big space at the top floor. Super relaxing. Just chitchatting, munched our food, and singing our hearts out up there.
What a carefree moment!
I want to do that again sia.
My face is red sia. =.=
Emo seh...
What an exciting day. Haaaaaaaaa. I shall plan another one for my friends in NYJC the next time. And it will be in East Coast Part. I swear.
Right after my last paper, I went on a tour around Singapore! I am serious. From school, I went back to Yishun aimlessly. And then boarded 965 to Sengkang to meet a friend. Slacked there awhile and headed for Plaza Singapura to meet up with the bandits.
They ate Gelare but I passed. Its alil expensive for me. Ha.
Flautists can be so similar at times. Just look at how they set their hands.
Afterwards, we made a short foray to Orchard but was deemed a pointless trip since the music shop that Clement was talking about was closed. After that, we took a bus and went to Suntec and I finally ate my breakfast/lunch/dinner there. =.=
Its kinda exciting to be blank and go aimless once in awhile.
Just let your legs be in control without your mind technically planning a destination to go to. Makes life even more unpredictable and so unplanned.
The Fountain of Wealth in Suntec was such a terrific scene to watch. The laser lights that shone through the thick night atmosphere just livened up the mood. And the sprayed water which showered around the outskirts of the fountain freshened things more. Plus, the music blasted in the night air made me want to dance in the rain and rejoice over the end of the Promotional Examinations.
Which I did a little when noones watching.
Happy happy!
The next day was an off day! Cos there weren't any papers on that day.
So I decided to catch a movie with my best buddies. Met up with Kenny and Farhan first at AMK hub. Then met MInghuat at the MRT. Initially, I wanted to catch it at Plaza Sing. However, Farhan just came back for a swim with his friends and he must be tired. So, I was being kind to let him off and instead we went to GV Yishun.
Watched Eagles Eye.
DAMN BLARDY GOOD, i tell you.
Better watch it man. Cos if not, you'll miss out alot. Though it was rated like 3 stars or something, I thought it deserved more than that! Basically, it was about terrorism. Just that this time round it has its twist.
I am going Sentosa in approximately 7 hours time!
With my YPSB juniors. I shall not classify Kenny as my junior anymore cos you didn't like that label. Hence, I shall call you my friend.
I recorded yet another new song. &Shit. I can't stop singing now. Damn.
Well, I was watching a video on youtube showing Utada Hikaru singing Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Greenday. And it was awesome man. From then on, it got me started. I can't stop singing that tune and I even wanted to do a version of my own.
So here it is. Ohhhh. And pardon me for not censoring the F word. == Forgot sia.
Perhaps I shouldn't sing rock songs like Leewei said. Doesn't suit my voice. And I kinda agree. Its a good experience to sing a genre of not my forte. But the songs that I sang before were all un-rock-ish too. And it still sounded...bad. Wait. That means I don't have a forte. Oh dang.
Shaun came over on Sunday. And he wanted to try to make an emo photo of himself too. But I think mine's better. 0.0
Emo sehhh.
Porn star and a err...a boy who wanted to sneeze.
Tomorrow's my last paper. Wish me all the best! Chemistry MCQ. =D
Having one whole week of unofficial holiday can be excruciating especially when I have nothing to do. Besides studying and probably go visiting to my relatives house, there is just nothing else I can possibly do. I wanted to go out...which I did but basically I end up getting stuck in Yishun for seven days and not leaving this neighbourhood.
Come to think of it. It all thanks to NYJC for planning such schedule.
Its really not necessary for NYJC to spread the Promotional Examinations to three freaking long weeks. It makes us suffer even more just waiting for our exams to end. Unlike other jcs like Anderson whereby they torture their students for a single week only. The pain is just short and sweet.
Enough said. And I shall move on with my mundane life.
As some of you know, I bought a microphone recently. And it had been my greatest friend at home accompanying me throughout the days. I made full use of it and recorded numerous songs.
Well, most of my recordings are not fit enough to be posted here. And that includes the one that I posted yesterday.Nevertheless, there are a couple which are pretty nice to listen to.
Okay, sorry if I sound BHB but can't I be once in a while?
I've always been a fan of Frank Sinatra's songs. Not the person though. Plus maybe the voice as well. He has this unique solid deep voice that glues into your head once you listen to it. And it gets very addictive to keep listening to it over and over again.
And I don't know...at times you just want to immerse into the song and start singing to the tune and dance along with it as well.
Fret not, I am trying to improve my rusty voice once and for all. Its been quite some time since I sang seriously. And I've decided to do it serious again.
LOL.
I sound as if I am a professional singer. My ass.
" I am singing seriously now. Really. I am..." ==
Noelle came over and we did a few duets on that day. It turned out so bad that we were laughing at our recorded voices most of the time. == Stupid siol. And me and my zhaoxia. Gay gay gay...
My chin hurts so bad these days man. There are like a cluster of pimples growing underneath my lips. And it is painful when I go to sleep. Don't ask me why... I wonder why too... Hmmm....
I can't help but to miss you. The times we spent together... Its taking a toll on me now. Its weird. Time lag I guess. Seriously, I miss you. I can go on forever saying that same phrase over and over.
I really wish to repent my mistakes and start over. However, I'm not too optimistic about that because I am afraid of repeating that same mistake again. And I will end up hurting you for the second time. Its too much for you to take once again.
But there is one thing I can promise. I promise that I will give in to you so much more compared to the previous me. I could just hold your hands. I could just walk you with under the stars again. I could just hug you to give you the assurance that everything will be okay. I could just smile to you and make your day. I could just be with you and share our love again.
It could. And it could not.
On an another note, I am pretty messed up these days. Up in my head.... I don't quite understand what I am feeling right now. The things which my heart feels may very much deceive me. Or it may just be the truth. Damn. I hate this brutal familiarity.
And you know I am helping you but I need to help myself too.
You and you. Thanks for making me ponder these days. With love.
Ya... I am in love. Again. Eh no. It might not be love. It may very well be puppy love. Or infatuation. Or crush. Ya lo.
Listen to this. It might not be so obvious to some of you. But just watch out for the transition to the chorus. You will catch something pretty interesting.
The best thing was, I did not even notice that I was doing that. ==
I celebrated it with my friends plus his birthday as well. That time I was still fasting and I dreaded waiting for the time to break fast. Cos looking at my friends eat tempted me so much man. I know very well that spending time with Cladys Liting and Clement were really nice. Chit chatting till late night was pretty relaxing.
So here are the pictures.
Clement.
Liting.
Cladys.
Alright. I'm off to sleep. Have several activities planned for tomorrow. Buy new microphones and do a recording with Noelle. Shiok balls.
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Nazreen
A kid who doesn't want to grow up
&A student who is insane and enthusiastic but dumb at times.
Sometimes he is kind of anti-social but nice.
I live happily on SINGLEHOOD(:
I was previously from Chung Cheng High (Yishun).
Now, in Nanyang Junior College.
My birthday, 22 December 1991.
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