Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Finally, I had dinner with the band clique and besties. I was looking forward to it since prehistoric years. Have been anticipating it for quite some time.

Definitely I managed to loosen up and de stressed. How I wish I can have that feeling every single day and not just Wednesdays and Fridays.

Sian.

Xiangyun, Cheryl, Farhan and me were selected for the wind ensemble.
An upcoming concert in August with the Young People Symphonic Band comprising of Mr Brando Tan bands. Some of which are Ang Mo Kio Secondary School Symphonic Band and Xinmin Secondary School Symphonic band.

So many things to look forward to.
I just hope I would not neglect my studies.
Or else my ass will be barbecued.



That is the design for the Band tee shirt for Osaka trip.
Uber cool isn't it?



I am so excited on the Osaka trip.
I am so excited on the Osaka trip.
I am so excited on the Osaka trip.


But before that. The concert comes first. Make it a success and you will be more contented.
10 days left to Aureus Experentia.

Go NYJCSB!

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Monday, April 28, 2008

The Peter and the Wolf casts attended Spiritanto XII by Anderson Junior College Band.



And boy, was I surprised to see them improve tremendously. Is it me or I just find them brilliant that day?
Perhaps it was the wet acoustic in the Republic Cultural Hall.
It was so bloody echo-ey that the noise of my flatulence could amazingly last for at least a minute.
Echo-ey halls are not good. They make you look good by covering up all your silly mistakes.

And their narration for Peter and the Wolf was superb! The fancy costumes and gargantuan props were catchy. I was sadly impressed. (:




Basically, they have the same phone. Thats all.


Small, Large and Medium. Wuper random. (X


And don't you love mother tongue lessons?
I do!


The only lesson which I always eager to come to.
Theres more la. But they are not in the picture.

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Band rehearsal yesterday. Until the concert day, my life will only revolves around band. And more band.

Basically, we combined with Guzheng for the last piece at the hall. The J2s were performing whereas the J1s became the audience.



From my point of view, I think the combined piece was very heart warming. Its a Chinese song, no wonder it sounded so soothing. Furthermore, its sung by Jay Chou. (:

No more Poet And Peasant. I am sad. Learning all the running notes and suddenly scraping it off upsets me. Look at the bright side!
No more stumbling of fingerings!




The girls. With a saxophone player in it. Guess who?





Funny when I used to say that I regretted joining band again. Now, I definitely do not think likewise. In fact, its the best choice I've made again. If it weren't for band, I would have never come across the people whom I love very much in band.

I know why I was feeling that way back then. I thought it will be just a waste of time. Playing a clarinet again. Having sectionals and combines. But if initially I did not choose this CCA, I realize I will miss a lot.

Miss playing music. Miss practising the clarinet.

Miss putting in my utmost effort to perfect the pieces.

Miss talking about band stuffs.

And miss being a band-it.


I'm taking my words back.

I am not regretting my decision being in a band again. In fact, it will always be the most wonderful thing I've done.

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Friday, April 25, 2008

I'm getting better. What a relief. I guess I should not try hard to mix around.
Just be me.
Like this.




I'm glad to have three great bandits with me. I should spell out their names so they would feel so honored to be featured in my blog. Cheryl, Xiangyun and Farhan.

Frankly, they are the ones whom I look forward to coming to band. (: Makes my JC life so much less miserable.

I guess without them I would have committed suicide long ago.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Exaggeration included.

Okay la. Won't be that bad. Perhaps I become a super duper emo boy. Yeah. That will be a possibility.

Hmm... And I think I should call them besties huh?
*winks



To Angel:

Angel, if you are reading this. I am bloody curious to know who you are. Well, the things that I might gradually tell you will be personal I must say. So be prepared. Its nice writing to you. I don't know why but I just get this feeling that you were once from AMK.
Random guess I know. Can't help it. =D

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

I cannot take it anymore. All the madness in my head is steering me to become crazy soon. I am definitely not talking rubbish. I am sure I am on the verge of snapping. This and that. Its hard to handle.
I would like to see a councilor. Treat me to a psychiatrist before I go bonkers.

And I realize I am quite anti-social. Its true what Mr Toh told me. The JC system somehow changes your behaviour. I believe I changed. I learned to be quiet. I can smile to acquaintances. But I cannot speak to them. I just can't. I lost touch with the meaning of 'friendliness'.
And there goes the silence...
The awkward pause.

Gah.

If you manage to read this, you are smart man. The spaces on top means something obviously. Come on. God. Please help me get through this crazy phase of life. It is the most unbearable so far. If not, I would not be posting emo posts consecutively. And I am still stuck. No progression.

Bismillah.


Aureus Experentia
When East meets West


Presenting the Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band
& the Guzheng Ensemble.

Date: 10th May 2008, Saturday
Time: 7:30pm
Venue: Singapore Conference Hall
Tickets are priced at $10 each.


Pieces that we will be playing

-Poet and Peasant Overture
-Absalon
-Carmen Suite
-Les Miserable
-Rock and Roll Explosion!
-Peter and the Wolf (narration)

etc.

Do catch us there! Contact me if you wish to go. Please come down and support us. Your presence will be very much felt. (:

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Douglas said something about me looking alike with someone named Zhong Wei.
Lets just assume Yang Zhong Wei.



Felicia overheard him telling me about it. And she confessed that this person (Yang Zhong Wei) is ugly.

Within a spilt second, my heart plunged into the sea of sheer sadness. Slowly draining away the life of the heart, the beating retarding as time begins to turn into history.

DRAMA SIA!

Okay. That was crappy to the max.
Just joking.


After which, I reached home and googled this guy who caught my mind with intense curiosity to find out how he looks like.

Not bad what.
Not ugly until like shit mah.



I think he look better than me la! (X

So, I assume that I'm ugly?
HAHA!

I guess so.


***********

Nice jump shot right?

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

I am exhausted.

For the past few days, I am feeling too lazy. Its as if I am always not in the presence of mind to carry out what I am suppose to do. The responsibilities being a student and a band member is tough. My body feels heavy and it just wants to lie on the bed all day long.

The idea of dropping school is always at the small little cervices of my brain. Never fails to whisper to me negative connotations. Which eventually will bring me down if I do not persevere and have the resilience to continue walking the right path. For now, I think I am on the wrong track. I'm being sluggish all the time. Lagging behind in almost anything. Talk about snail.



On the Saturday, Group 1 committee carried out a band breakfast. I thought it was a heartwarming way to bond the band. God knows whether they did. But overall, it was the thought that counts. Eating together as a section and a band seems good. You know what I'm saying right?

Lets just hope the band will grow stronger together. (:

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Friday, April 18, 2008

Finally, I look forward to band practices.

Its the trip back home which makes it so special. It is the time when I can be share my feelings. My ups and downs. And most importantly, be myself. No more trying my best to mingle around and squeezing the brain so hard to think of what to talk about till the brain dries up.
Now, it just comes naturally.

Its the journey back home every Wednesday and Friday nights which makes me happy and relieved while enjoying the best company. Friends which I could not yet find in the curriculum.
That is the period which I can finally laugh my hearts out and crap the hell out of my pressured mind.

I will always ride back home with Cheryl, Xiangyun and Farhan.And as of today, we talked about relationships and friendships.The norms of being in a complicated situations related to these things.
Anyway, I realized that someone do care and listen to me with much will. Though Farhan and Xiangyun alighted much earlier, I do know that I enjoyed their company a lot and the conversation we engaged in previously.

Anyhow,
I wish I had Farhan's happy-go-lucky personality.
Not once I seen him sulked. He is always smiling and laughing. How cool is that! I cannot even do it for half a day!
Actually his name explains it all.

Cos simply,
Farhan = Happy (in arabic text)

Surely, Cheryl and me both agreed that we envied his cheery personality. And the two of us wants his cheerful self badly.

I am trying my best to move on. But I could not. And whenever I feel dejected in class. Noone knows cos they do not understand me. Its difficult for me. I am extremely used to having someone being right beside me all the time. A friend who constantly look at me in the eyes. A friend who talks to me all the time. A friend who never fails to liven up my spirits when I'm down. A friend who just understands me.

Eat together. Play together. Study together. Sleep together. Shit together.

Okay. Not to that extent.
Well, you get it don't you?

I am so used to having a best friend that when I'm removed from my comfort zone, I just blank out.

That is how bad it is right now.


For your information, I am not emo. I am merely sharing what I feel. And it just sucks to be in this situation.

I presume Poly students are way more fortunate than JC students. They need not experience what I'm going through. Cos they have enough supply of friends (maybe even excessive at times). And that they have a wide range of people to choose from to be their close friend.
Best thing is, there are tonnes of people taking the same course as you!
Unlike me, the people who are taking the same subjects are near extinction! Including me, three in total.

So currently, I am facing a scarcity of close friends.

Bah. Sucks.

Don't worry. Nazreen is fine.
Words of wisdom is not needed. He is plain tired being stuck in the situation he is under right now.

As long as you manage to read up the whole entry, you are a fantastic and loyal blog reader!
Bravo!

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

NYJC Symphonic Band and the Guzheng ensemble had a rehearsal at the Singapore Conference Hall on Wednesday.
I was looking forward to it so much. Left GP class with such enthusiasm. (X



Upon reaching the SCH,
it brings back so much fond memories. The SYF.
I can still picture the situation and atmosphere during that very day. Bands all over the hall waiting for the moment to showcase what they have been working on for months. Nervousness reeks the air. The anticipation of outcome. All of it still fresh in my mind.

But that day, its different. No pressure of being to be judged. Instead, it was delight. To perform back there again. (:



I love them. J2s are included in the picture too.


While the rest were camwhoring downstairs, we went up to do it. Outside the hall.


The JAE J1s Clarinet section. Some of them are missing in it.


Yay! Jump shots! My favourite.
I jumped strangely. God...


Formal shot.

Ignore my stupid hairstyle. Its meant to be like that. Portraying a dumb and nerdy look. So people might think that I am actually smart. Haha! (more like retarded)

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Monday, April 14, 2008

Nazreen is so sad.
Nazreen do not have any close friends yet.
Nazreen needs someone.
Nazreen wants someone whom he can look forward to coming to school everyday.

Someone he can laugh his heart out with.
Someone whom he can go through thick and thin with.
Someone he can hang out with.
Someone he can talk with personally.
About Love. Friendship. Family. School. Band.



Someone whom he calls Bestie...



Things are not favourable. Everyone is taking different combinations. They are scattered everywhere. Nazreen is just unable to establish new best friendships like he used to in secondary school days. Its different now.

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Sunday, April 13, 2008

Heluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

It was Saturday. My twin and me attended the SYF marching assessment and display band. The reason why I was so enthusiastic to come down was solely to support Tanjong Katong Secondary School Band.

#1 Fan can!

At last, the defending champion for a decade failed to own the Best Display Band of the year award. Instead it went to Deyi Secondary School. A little disappointed but it does not concern me anyway. So why should I care? (X











Prize Presentation award.

I was fairly satisfied with the results. Deyi and Tanjong Katong clinched a Gold With Honour.

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

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Monday, April 07, 2008

I do not understand what teachers think about students.

For now, I seem to have a problem with certain teachers in school. I shall not mention who, as it is only rightful not to speak out.

First and foremost, I am not a rebellious kid.
Okay. I admit, maybe a teeny weeny bit.
( Your speech implied I am one )
If he seriously think I am one, then what word can he possibly describe the students in my previous school?
Devils?

Compared to many more, I can be considered as one of those few who does not create trouble unnecessarily. I dare say that I'm nice and decent.
Yes, I surrender that it was my fault to be mumbling something in my mouth. Partly, due to his vivid facial expression that made me do it. His look showed as if I am so stupid and hopeless since most unfortunately I was not able to answer his question.

I apologize because I am so bad in putting my thoughts into words that it just did not seem too precise and accurate for you.

Both of us were frustrated. I clearly realized that.

The thing that I was freaking bloody unhappy was that you said that I was influencing others to somehow make you look bad and unreasonable.

Bloody hell no.

The rest of my classmates have already fixed that opinion of you billion years ago. So there was no need to sway their thoughts anymore cos I would simply be wasting my precious breath and energy which I can save it for something much more deserving.
For example, choosing to ignore you?

This is getting ridiculous.

Frankly speaking from the bottom of my broken heart which was hammered into 364247891264 pieces with such an understatement being shot at me mercilessly, I do not appreciate receiving that title.

The one who's lagging behind.
The one who's influencing others.
The one who do not grasp his O level syllabus well but god knows how he manage to enter NYJC.
The one who may repeat another year just to brush up his content and concepts again.

I frigging hate that.

Want to know whats attitude and rebellion?

This is it.



I am not directing this picture to anyone.

Please do not sue me. This is my diary.
Freedom of speech baby!
So I better not expect a hoo-haa out of this entry.
Cheers!


p/s: I know I am in the wrong too. If you were to be in my shoes, you will understand why I am feeling this way.

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Saturday, April 05, 2008

What do I usually do in front of the computer?

Simple!

Just like all of you do.


Visit my Friendster. Every minute.



Listen to songs which makes you go HIGH.


I will smell my hanky. Muacks muacks.


Go blogsurfing.
Seriously, I'm so deprived of blogs to read. I need them to occupy myself. Any blogs to recommend?


Take random pictures which makes no sense.


Hello, I am Naz aka Naz-riano in the blogosphere. (:




p/s: I do chat with people too! I forgot to add that into my blogpost. Darn.

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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

I miss two days of school.
Shucks. I hope I do not miss much.

My fever isn't subsiding. I can still feel the heat in my body and its pretty uncomfortable.
Weak as what I'm experiencing right now.
*cough cough

The time I spent at night is usually unproductive. I cannot help it. Procrastinating to revise and do whatever things that are beneficial. I am always at the losing end. Discipline is what I desperately in need of now. But how do I start? And where? Urgh. Damn lost.


Sports Carnival


I had a great time. Finding our way through the Botanic Garden and camwhoring along the way never felt so fun. Orienteering can be a bore if we did not do all those stuffs. Chionging here and there and overtaking other groups etc. And most importantly, snapping many many photos. That was the best.

The first thing we did before all the groups start on their journey was to complete a Sudoku challenge.







Jing ke's shade was the favourite item of the day. Everyone fought over it. Including me.





Stupid uncle who ruined my photo! Was just kidding luh. Poor uncle...

Okay. I was trying my best to do a nice pose. Judging from the picture below, definitely cannot make it!



All time favourite!
Jump shot!



I am still waiting for my jumpshot Mavis...


This was a total disaster. Acting emo.
If you take a closer look, their expressions and actions were quite believable. They looked sad. ): As if someone just died.



Now, we were trying to act sexy.
Woots!
Sexayye!



Up on a hill. Jodi and me.



Last pic of the day!




Nazreen should go and study now!

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