Do not ever think that I am what I am outside. Have a closer look and you will notice something. It will take time to find out what is it. I am simple. Too simple to be understood. Find the missing jigsaws. Put it together. The image will strike clear. Making you dumbfounded.
Yes. That is me. Like a piece of jigsaw puzzle. Even I do not know who isme.
Well, I think I already am. Have been sleeping very late each day. I will be starting to lay on my bed at around 3am at least. Sigh. No wonder I feel so exhausted every day.
You know. I've been thinking a lot lately. Heh. About what to get when I receive my first pay. HAHA! My desire is really strong. Can't help it but to splurge. Not use all the money. Siao. 70% of it I'll keep. No. Make it 60. Hmmm. Nah. 50 perhaps. =.=
So let me present to you all the things that I feel like buying. My wants. Not needs. (:
Don't laugh! Haha. I admit.
I'm budget to the MAX!!!
People already have theirs and here I am struggling to get one. I need one la urgently.
The Nokia earphones will soon be returned back to its original owner. Sob sob. I'm just the foster parents. I adopted him during the O levels period to keep me motivated to study. And now since its over. I have to give back. Sigh.
That tells that I cannot live without music blasting to my ear drums to wherever I go. Each and every sec of boredom has to be filled with melodious music to keep me company. Still contemplating whether its worth it. ( obviously it is) But I could just get a cheap affordable Mp3s that are available in stores. Nice pretty designs will do. And not as if people are going to look at your music player and talk about how cool it is. The use of it already is worthy.
Hence...its
NOT CONFIRM.
Next,
This confirm must buy! Hehe. I just need a couple of sleek stylish sneakers to match it with my clothes. Most likely black and white will be the choice cos its easier to pair up with any garment.
Therefore, lets classify it.
CONFIRM MUST BUY.
Okay. Is it too late to own a PSP slim? Hah. Slim okay. Not the bulky one. However, I still cannot figure out the distinctive features that stands out between the two PSPs. That slim meh? So-so what.
Its still the trend now. So better get one fast.
So,
CONFIRM MUST BUY.
This! I'm obsessed with it currently. My interest towards serious photography is developing fast. Seriously. Survey through any artistic photographs in any photo gallery website. The photos flaunt so much beauty and meaning that grabs my interest straightaway.
Nevertheless, take the price into account. And I'll faint on the spot. It costs more than 1k. Ya. Can go and die. That clearly means that I need to save up. One pay is not enough.
Working in the administrative sector is rather boring. The picture says it all. In fact, some of the teenagers working there have already plan to quit. That is how excrutiating it can be. Imagine staring the screen doing the same thing over and over again. And your legs usually get numb. Butt aching. Back strain. Eyes unable to concentrate.
Miraculously, i manage to overcome all that. Like surprisingly. Most of the time, I cannot sit still even for a minute. I tend to move around and fidget. Fortunately, for the need of money, I battle the interminable boredom and long working hours.
Cheerios!
What do you bring when you go to work?
I bring these.
Front.
Back.
I decorated it when I had too much free time. Its too plain la. Damn budget. So professional for what. Get some fun! Decorate your stuffs! =.= If my boss sees this, my butt will get roasted for sure.
The long bus ride to and fro might get a lil bored. Solution? Dissolve in some lusty music. Engage in a trance while waiting to reach your destination. An obvious way to kill boredom for most teens anyway. Music.
Snacks to munch on is certainly a MUST. Tendency for your stomach to growl is very likely. And I think I'm putting on weight. Great!
Gulp.
Motivational booster.
It does work seriously! When you feel lousy, this is the one way to free yourself. Chocolates are yummy. Sweet. The way it melts in your mouth. Umph. Can't get enough.
What do you think? I seriously have nothing to say. It does makes sense. On the other hand, it seems as if its just a fake scare tactics. You judge yourself. (:
Even if the world does end on that very date, I will die young. Yay. Don't care if I'm still a virgin. But! I won't get to celebrate my 21th birthday. Its just one day before my birthday. Can you imagine the agony? I'm not even legal to watch R21 movies nor go clubbing. God.
Its over between us. But I still wish that we can be good friends like last time. You take care. (:
I will pray for you to find a much better person than me.
********** Oh. AND I DON'T WORK AT A POLYCLINIC.
ITS A LABORATORY!
People funny la. Just because its related to doctors stuffs and you assume its a polyclinic. Not just you Aishah. Many others ask the same question. XD
Okay! Time for an invigorating post!
Got back from home. It was raining cats and dogs! Madness. I was wet and thanks to it I got a cold.Chu!
Nevertheless, my mood was being mischievous as usual. So i decided to make a complete random post for this blog. Here goes!
I looked through my stuffs in my room. And i found the NYJC pamphlet. Was really crazy about getting into that JC. Used to. Hah. Not now.
Warning: An emotional entry ahead. You can choose not to read.
He seems to be shrouded in a haze of confusion currently.
He was extremely gleeful when he finally had her. He thought that it would be the perfect thing that could ever happen to him.
Somehow, a part of him still believed that he wasn't ready. Furthermore, O levels were drawing nearer. Could he sustain his love life? He prayed hard that it would be.
Its almost a few months now. He lost it. The love was drifting away from his soul. Came an obsession which haunted him ever. He was in an extreme disarray. What was he thinking? It would be sinful to think of such stuffs. Unfortunately, it was beyond the realm of possibility to elude from it.
An obsession began. And guilt engulfed him since then.
He tried his best to keep the relationship strong. Meanwhile, energy was draining out from him, unable to uphold the relationship. Subsequently, she was affected too. Feeling tormented, she denied and put up a front. To look delirious as if nothing had happen.
Maybe, he wasn't prepared to commit himself in a relationship. He's not sure too. Only time will tell. Sooner or later, he would snapped and gave up. Surrender. He never meant to hurt her nor torture her indirectly. It just did naturally due to his immaturity.
Being in the obsession he's stuck in, he did not know what to do. Shut his heart and let nature takes its course. Or simply let go.
Back to reality, that felt good! Phew. Please ignore the fact that it might seem kind of emotional and depressing. I need a good let out.
Just a brief peek at what I was doing the whole day. Obviously, I was working hard. Workaholic.
Data Entry. Some say its rather an easy job. Frankly, the level of exhaustion is the same for most jobs as well. To look in a different perspective of this administrative work, it is tiring mentally. The errors and the typos you make will leave you having a patch on your hair. pull hair too much.
Supposedly, it was meant to be a half day since its Saturday after all. However due to the excessive work flow, time stretches interminably that I went off at 8.30pm. Over time; more appropriate. Hell, I will still receive more pay. So no grumbling.
Thats not the longest. Some are too elongated that the space given is not even enough. And I hate Malaysians IC no. Longest among the foreigners ID no. Oh. My work is just to key in the details (mirror image) of what is shown in the request forms. And all the patients are foreigners. =D From Bangladeshi to Germans. Fancy.
I just got back from Macdonalds. Was making a card for my girlfriend. Its her birthday today. Call me jerk. I havent bought anything for her yet.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! WO AI NI! XD
Anyhow, want to take sneak peek at the card? Hee. It may look kinda gross since I haven't been putting my hands into Art for like two years! So dont blame me.
I need to get use to the working environment quickly. Nevertheless, it was fun. Fooling around. =D I stared in front of the monitor for more than 8 hours. Backache was and is still at my mercy. Still, I made $54 ! XD Satisfaction guaranteed!
Okay. Wana go back to chatting. Miss blabbering online.
Night Adventures. Sleepovers. Dye hair. Shopping. Jogging. New wadrobe. Swimming. New hairstyle. New skin colour. Partying.
So much to come out with before the Os. And now, its officially over. It seems that I'm lost. In a sense that there isn't any goals set to achieve since Os are done. Weird.
Before the Os, I had billions of ideas to do after the examinations. Frankly, theres too much time that I don't even know how to spend it. Wisely. Find a job? Nah. Not yet.
=/ Come on. Get over and done with the Genting trip and I'm free to search for a job and earn $$$. Grr.
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OH. I have something to blog. Ironically, I went to Yishun Swimming Complex with my friend since both have nothing to do. And I don't have any money to spend on expensive activities. You know. I'm a poor kid you see.
Wait. When I reached the place, noone was there! Happy seh! The whole place was mine. =D Shall shut up for now.
Its been such a long time since I've touched my keyboard.
Wait!...
O Levels Are Over!!!
*applause and cheers!*
Im euphoric! First and foremost, I shaved my head. Yes. Shaved, during the O level that is. Not because that I was too stressed or whatsoever. I thought it seems much neater? Hah. Call it ugly. I don't care. Cos so many comments had been passed and most sounded hilarious enough to make my day. Cheerios!
And so, after my last paper; Pure Geography, I partied and rejoiced much to the extent that I slept till 7 the next day. In the evening. (:
On that very must-go-crazy-til-you-drop day, I went to Teenage 19th birthday bash at DXO. Saw ALOT of ChungCheng students. I mean it. Several from each level. Impressive heh? Was a cool and wild party. Dint regret going. Thanks Peijun for bringing me.
Teenage is 19!
Okay, some pictures to adorn my blog.
Holidays are here. Most unfortunately, my computer was indeed being mischievious at the most perfect timing to be spoilt. And Ta-Da! No internet connection. Poor me, I have to stay up at a friends place to blog. Pathetic. =/
Guess I need to go now. Pardon me for my bad and rusty photography skills. (I was never great in it before anyway). Lol.
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Nazreen
A kid who doesn't want to grow up
&A student who is insane and enthusiastic but dumb at times.
Sometimes he is kind of anti-social but nice.
I live happily on SINGLEHOOD(:
I was previously from Chung Cheng High (Yishun).
Now, in Nanyang Junior College.
My birthday, 22 December 1991.
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