Tuesday, January 29, 2008

I have been feeling frequently emotional. About school. About friends.
Almost about everything. I do not know why the hell am I feeling this awkwardly.

I need to get back my cheery self back. And be happy like I always do. I do not want to have mood swings so often that I do not even mix well with my friends and giving them cold shoulders. Perhaps this is just a common period for me. Something like PMS for me.

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Its been clinging to my mind and bothering me for so long. This shift to a whole new life, band, school and friends are exposing me to so much get-used to concept. I need time to adapt to the culture and the environment.

The most disturbing thought that keeps clouding my mind is that I somehow regretted DSA-ing to band. Honestly, I love everything which is related to band. In fact I was once a so called band freak.

Come to a point where you simply lose passion and interest is real scary...which is what I am feeling right now. Probably the entire new surrounding makes me this way. I keep thinking that I do not want to continue pursuing music in JC.

Deep inside me wants to elude and play around and get active and hyper. Sweat from the heat. Laughing to the peak of fun. Yes. I wish to join another side of CCAs, far from the Performing Arts. Experience new things. I can't just stick to one and be with it forever. Things are ever-changing.

Even your heart needs a change more often than not.

However, very sadly, I could not own such freedom. I feel that this DSA ( direct school admission) is some kind of clever yet dumb system to allow such talents signing a contract with a particular school and being committed to it under many circumstances.

Live with it if you don't like it. Of course I'm partly to blame for accepting but I do have my reasons too.

I mean. Can't you also let us have the right to withdraw without a deadline. Why must be a fucking stupid deadline. Yes. I clearly know the reasons why but it sucks to be so fickle minded and being indecisive. The heart too sometimes can't be force into such things. You can't simply put the blame on us for wanting to leave a certain CCA.


FUCK. DO NOT EVER DSA TO ANY SCHOOLS! PUT YOUR BRAINS AND BRAWNS TO GOOD USE AND WORK HARD!

Any solutions? I'm going bonkers.

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Went to school today. Miss my juniors and decided to pay them a visit.



The band store.




My ex.




Oh. I so love this song. Good thing the band is playing this piece.

Labels: DSA

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Saturday, January 26, 2008

Boo!



I have nothing specific to blog about. Hence, i shall talk about something pretty random for now.


Lets see. What did i do today?

I went to Yishun Junior College carnival with my fellow classmates. Hmm, this is getting boring.
Nothing much to comment except for the fact that the building is quite old and seems run-down. The whole place seems gloomy in my opinion and it does not portray a good and conducive environment to study. Teachers were claimed to be nice and helpful.





But I am not going to Yishun Junior College. I just went there to merely survey how the school is. Personally, I would prefer Innova Junior College since it has the latest facilities to date. And taking into account that it is still a new college.






*its pretty random putting the school crest. Just to adorn this entry up. (:

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I was thinking on whether to take up H2 Chemistry as I really am interested in that subject. Surprising though. Perhaps, dropping Econs or maybe Malay Lit since it serves no purpose because I do not wish to become a teacher.

Like no way! Spending the rest of my entire pathetic life, in school and being surrounded by new generation of students which may grow to be very pampered in future. Maybe even worst than the current secondary 1s. Gosh. I may just end up in Woodbridge after serving a few weeks in school.

I just think it may be useless if I do not intend to further my standard of language. I guess I should consider it very carefully.


Some of you might be wondering which school am I going to choose. I know. There are already some superbly kaypoh people who ask me how much I got for my results. And he is unfortunately just a stranger. Mere acquaintance whom he added me in MSN after knowing in NIE band. Haha. Okay. This is going to be almost specific. Not so specific since I do not own a picture of him.

I AM SAYING ITS PIN KOON
FROM JURONG SECONDARY SCHOOL
WHO PLAYS THE BLOODY FREAKING CLARINET!

WHY DID YOU EVEN ASK ME?
WANA SHOW OFF HUH?
12 POINTS?
BIG DEAL!

I got 15. Mediocre. Say whatever you want.

Call me jerk. I don't care. If you do visit here, I say you are being disliked. Not hated take note. Sorry. I am that mean to certain people. (: But anyway, you should be touched since your name was specially mentioned here. Cheerios!

Okay. I think I am rather bad. Lol.
I am sorry PK. Maybe I got too far-fetched! Now I feel so sinful.


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Ignore the remarks and look at this. I appeared twice in the school magazine. Wahseh. What an honour!
I remembered vividly that picture was taken like 3 years ago? When I was still a small kid. Not so small anymore.

Labels: JCs and PK

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Thursday, January 24, 2008

Come on!

Three cheers for yourself!
Smile!


It was so unexpected. Not that its fantastic or anything, but I managed to get a pretty decent score this time. Taking into account on how badly I did for Prelims for shamelessly getting 33 points. I am somehow satisfied.
*smiling to the ears*

L1R5 - 15
L1R4 - 11

I appreciate what I got and not dwelling much on it. Period.
Before that, lets give a round of applause for Science.
From a pathetic lousy F9 to a surprising A1. Yay!



Ahah! They thought they can't even make it to Polytechnic. And now see the outcome! Everyone of us are deciding on which Junior College to apply for.
Standing in order of merit. Well, obviously the missing space is reserved for me.



From flunking my Pure Geog in Prelims, I finally gotten myself a distinction in it. Yes. Unbelievable. I know.



I hate Malay Language! I did not improve a single grade! Everyone got themselves a distinction and I was left with a merit for Oral. That shows how bad my social and communication skills are!






This is me. Try zooming in into the result slip.

Yeah! Wait long long!

Labels: Olevel result

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Man. The O level results are being released tomorrow.

This is nerve-wrecking. Being nervous is natural, and it prepares you for any worst case scenario or even the best things that you have never even thought of getting. So, it equips you to be mentally prepared.

Well, at least I think I am.

This goes out to all my friends who are taking their O level results tomorrow.

GOOD LUCK!
ALL THE BEST!

MAY YOU GET INTO THE COURSE AND INSTITUTION THAT YOU DESIRE.

Naz. I pray very much for you to at the very least stay in Nanyang JC. Best still, achieve the unexpected! Put aside your prelims results and cast it at the back of your mind. Its history! O level is O level. Miracles do happen. Believe and it will do wonders.

Insyallah.

I may tear tomorrow. Wishing that its tears of joy. Smiling in my heart and jumping for joy.

Brilliant idea my principal has. The sec4s and 5s will be watching us taking our results. Now that may be disturbing. Hopefully, the cohort will do UNEXPECTEDLY WELL. Too many teachers has been looking down on us last year. We need to prove them wrong and that we are no failure but achievers. (:

Alright. I needa go.


All the best to me!
All the best to CCHY!
All the best to OG34!

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Monday, January 21, 2008

Oh man.

The release of O level results is on Thursday 24 Jan 2008, 2pm.
I am feeling jittery.

How am I going to open up my result slip? Slowly peeping the numbers printed on the paper? Or just swipe open? Foo~
I don't know. Whatever it is, I should accept it with an open mind. Fate has its way. But no matter what, I still should not lose hope too luh. Hope for the very best! =)


Digressing, let me introduce to you some of my OG mates who are undoubtedly camera-SHY.



This is XueZhen from CHIJ ST Nicks. She takes the same subject combi as me too. =D



And this self-proclaimed shy girl, Weichi is from Anderson Sec. A very lame friend. To the max in fact.




Don't know why. I just seem to love Strawberry HL milk. I even have two of them at home. Xuezhen says its GAY. Ha. I'm GAY.




My dearest OGL! Grace! Currently, in JC2. She is my singing partner leh. And we joined THE ONE ( singing competition in Nanyang) and we got through the Semi. Ain't that great or what?
Now, all the way to Finals! Jiayou!


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Further digression, I am disliking some of the Indians in Singapore increasingly. Seriously. I can't take their loud voice when in large supposedly illegal gathering. When they come united, its utterly disturbing to hear them speaking so loud and not be a single bit considerate that they are indirectly annoying people around them. Acting rather wild too.

For example, I was in the bus today heading home after school, this bunch of boys were discussing as if in loudspeaker about their planned activities for the day. And this particular guy sat kinda inappropriately on his seat. Forgot the position luh. However, it looks very not right. =.= Ha. Bad explanation I know.

I have no hard feelings against the race but just do not favour their behaviour in public when come in big groups. What I am referring to are those so-called Mats and Minahs version of the Indians. I mean, come on! Show some politeness.

No offence. I am just ranting my views. And I honestly do not mean to make an unnecessary generalisation. I am only directing to only certain type of humans. Even the Chinese and Malays have this type of people. Just look around and you'll find them in no time. (:

Labels: OG

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

Ahuh!

I'm back from a very long vacation.
First of all, I recently discovered that my computer was working perfectly fine all along. Really. My brother switched on the computer and it surprisingly came alive. =.=

And we were so dumb to put the RAM, some internal parts wrongly. As in, I guess we placed it in the wrong position? Perhaps. Now, I feel so dumb for MIA-ing without being oblivious to the current situation.

So, to sum it all up,

MY BLEEDY COMP WAS WORKING ALL ALONG.

Such an ass.

Some new updates.

Some of you may see me in my school uniform. No no. I am not a retainee. I'm going having PAE. So no more asking okay? Sigh. A few more days to release of O level results. I am definitely hoping for the best. (:

Anyway, I just changed my handphone. I'm so loving it. Its a touchscreen phone. XD

And I predict that I would not sms that much because its extremely tedious to type. Since a keypad does not exist in Viewty, you have to depend on the screen sensitivity to capture your action.

*Before, to text about a 10 words message, I usually take around 10 sec. Now, I need to take at least a minute to type excluding errors and whatnot.*

Indeed frustrating.

However, I found out that the phone is really sellable. (Its there even such a word?) I think the people who bought it must have regretted if he/she do message a lot. Hence, if you are a heavy sms-er, trust me I urge you to think twice or thrice or how many times to make you consider properly before purchasing it.

Yes. It might look cool to have a touchscreen phone but supremely ma fun to sms or even scroll around.

The only thing that will make you want to buy this phone is the camera. Its 5 megapixel. Superbly cool huh? And yes, I think thats the only thing that I adore.


So let me show you a couple of propagandish pictures!

Labels: Viewty

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