Monday, March 17, 2008
Hear my rantings.
I just hate the idea of a friend and another friend of mine gets together and be the closest of friends.
I mean, I bring them to meet together for the first time to introduce one another. And the next minute, I see them walking in front of me engrossed in their conversation, laughing their hearts out.
It bloody ass stinks if you see them so happily click like some siamese twins.
Soon after, they kicked you out and ignore you.
Like What the Fucking Hell!
I don't know. However, I feel evil inside. I simply do not like the comfortable environment that I'm already in being altered. Yes. Its a mean and utterly selfish thought. But I can't run away from it and deny my feelings. That will be much more of a dishonest and selfish mean of keeping your thoughts. In fact, I might just find ways to avenge my broken friendship if the feelings just keep on accumulating.
Anyway, thanks Cheryl for that theory. Now, I know how you felt.
Alright. Done ranting for the first part.
Next.
Oh man. I need someone to stand by me in this school. I have not met anyone who are of the same level of thinking and maturity as me. Its tough to find a friend who are just meant for you. It sucks without a friend whom I can laugh with and talk and get emotionally attached. Not literally. But friendship wise.
I have abandon many good friends along the way. Because they are not the same school as me. Rift develops and I start to find it awkward with that particular friend somehow. I lose that familiarity with them. The things that you always get used to and feel good about with that person are half gone. Not completely gone. Thats what I'm feeling.
Its either I miss my good old secondary school friends or just having a bad day.
I really miss them.
I miss Shaun, Joshua, Adib, Noelle, Sabrina, Shafiq, Atiqah, Nicole and many more.
I even miss my juniors.
They are the faces that I sometimes take for granted are long gone.
Unfortunately, everything will come and go.
They will not be with me for the rest of my school years. Not anymore.
No matter what, I have to survive.
I will pray for that someone to become real.
A friend for me to smile to and look forward seeing to each and every day I wake up.
For now, my world is just like an empty shell. Pathetic.
I guess I shall wait for that someone to appear. (:
**********
Since this post is quite lengthy, I shall let this photo entertain you.
Click on the picture below to read the fonts much clearly.
Labels: rantings
7:17 AM
NAZREEN. updated!
