Saturday, November 17, 2007

Warning:
An emotional entry ahead. You can choose not to read.


He seems to be shrouded in a haze of confusion currently.

He was extremely gleeful when he finally had her. He thought that it would be the perfect thing that could ever happen to him.

Somehow, a part of him still believed that he wasn't ready. Furthermore, O levels were drawing nearer. Could he sustain his love life? He prayed hard that it would be.

Its almost a few months now. He lost it. The love was drifting away from his soul. Came an obsession which haunted him ever. He was in an extreme disarray. What was he thinking? It would be sinful to think of such stuffs. Unfortunately, it was beyond the realm of possibility to elude from it.

An obsession began. And guilt engulfed him since then.

He tried his best to keep the relationship strong. Meanwhile, energy was draining out from him, unable to uphold the relationship. Subsequently, she was affected too. Feeling tormented, she denied and put up a front. To look delirious as if nothing had happen.

Maybe, he wasn't prepared to commit himself in a relationship. He's not sure too. Only time will tell. Sooner or later, he would snapped and gave up. Surrender. He never meant to hurt her nor torture her indirectly. It just did naturally due to his immaturity.

Being in the obsession he's stuck in, he did not know what to do. Shut his heart and let nature takes its course. Or simply let go.




Back to reality, that felt good! Phew. Please ignore the fact that it might seem kind of emotional and depressing. I need a good let out.

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10:59 PM

NAZREEN. updated!